A Year And An Ocean lyrics

Song information

Artist: The Khayembii Communique
Album: The Khayembii Communique

Lyrics

I'm trying too hard to forget to just be me
Forgetting to forget the imagined audience
Who I wish would understand me
Yet never know me
Because I can't bear to show what I don't know
This is why I discuss trivialities
This is why I seem so strong
Because my shell won't be cracked if I make sure you never find out how to
Yet I want to open up
I want to see who I am
I want to see
But it terrifies me to think that maybe you love me for what I say and not who I am
My politics just aren't me;
Just another wall between you and i

The select few who've seen through the facade
I pushed away in horror
Afraid of what they knew
I withheld so much about myself to keep a fucked-up advantage
And now I see I never had anything to gain
So now there's no more trying to "just be me"
No more hiding behind a language. just expose myself for what I've been;
A fraud
Cashing in on rhetoric
That I learned to abuse
What I used to push you away
That I used to win even though.. every single time I lost
Every single time